Proving Yourself Wrong

I look at my past

Moments of victory

Of joy,

Of compassion,

Of happiness,

And of course…pride.

All intertwined to become

Something that I would have pride

Over all these years.

Something to reminisce about when I am much older.

In my bout of joy,

I forget what lies between the positive.

The moments of self-doubt,

Of misery,

Of feeling like I wasn’t enough.

Lack of confidence

In my actions

In my words

In my feelings

In my memories

In myself

I yearned to find a way

To overcome the weight

I guess some things were meant to go unsolved.

This piece describes what it may feel like to doubt your victories. Instead of applauding yourself, you may find yourself questioning if you deserved it. The negatives and positives are intertwined when we think of the ups and downs in life. They simply cannot exist without the other. Instead of trying to mask the self-doubt, weaponize it - not an actual weapon per se, but more like willpower. Try to take your self-doubt and prove it wrong. You can’t run a mile in under 9 minutes? Prove it wrong…practice until you can! Instead of grumbling about how unfair your life is, try and prove yourself wrong!